Overcoming Obstacles

This message was first delivered at Court Street United Methodist Church in Lynchburg, Virginia on June 24, 2018. It is based on the lectionary texts of 1 Samuel 17, 2 Corinthians 6:1-13 and Mark 4:35-41

Overcoming Obstacles

On that day, when evening had come, he said to them, “Let us go across to the other side.” And leaving the crowd behind, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. Other boats were with him. A great windstorm arose, and the waves beat into the boat, so that the boat was already being swamped. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke him up and said to him, “Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?” He woke up and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” Then the wind ceased, and there was a dead calm. He said to them, “Why are you afraid? Have you still no faith?” And they were filled with great awe and said to one another, “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?”

Teacher, don't you care that we are perishing? Does he care? Oh disciples, do we even need to ask? He cares deeply and mourns with us as we struggle but he asks us – why are you afraid? Have you forgotten my promises so quickly? Do you still have no faith?

Obstacles, trials, hardships, struggles – they come in so many shapes and sizes. But in the midst of the storm, problems seem 10 feet tall and mockingly impossible. I'm glad that I've never had to be in battle against a literal giant...I'm not much of a fighter. I took some karate classes in my twenties and managed to break my own finger so bad that I had to have surgery to put it back together. There are two tiny screws in my left pinky.

Physical battles are rarely the struggles that most of us go through, but our battles are no less real. Today's lectionary scripture from 2 Corinthians includes a list of challenges that Paul knew the early church was dealing with: beatings, imprisonments, riots, labors, sleepless nights and hunger. We know that globally people face persecution, abuse and horrors we can scarcely imagine...much less imagine how to endure. In our country there are people suffering from unemployment, family strife, medical issues, financial worries. We do not have to look far to see Goliaths all around us. Somebody wake up Jesus! How can he be sleeping at a time like this?

Saul and the Israelites were feeling defeated. They've been in a stalemate for 40 days while this huge Philistine came out daily to mock and challenge them. It was so bad that Saul had offered a great ransom, including his daughter to anyone who could rid them of Goliath. The army of Israel, the people of God had lost all hope.

I think we can all relate the the feeling of hopelessness. We have all faced our own Goliaths...maybe you've tackled a big one like an abusive spouse or parent, alcoholism, drug addiction or smoking! Maybe it is the collective pressure of a bunch of little Goliaths. I don't know if you've ever heard this particular question to ponder – but spend a moment to decide, “Would you rather face 1 horse-sized duck or 100 duck-sized horses?” Google that later to see what some other people have thought on the topic. My point is – even small challenges get overwhelming when that stack up all at once.

Maybe you haven't tackled what others would call BIG – I'm glad for all of us who haven't been homeless or divorced or lost a child – but all those duck-sized horses can wear you down until you are in the same hopeless state that Saul and his army were in. And the disciples in the boat were in. And we cry out...like Saul, “can't someone rise up against the Philistine? I'll reward you beyond your wildest dreams!” and we cry out like the disciples in the boat, “where are you God? Don't you even care?”

David was not in the army. He wasn't at the front – he was home tending to things there when his Dad told him to take some provisions up to his brothers and the king. When he gets there he is offended by this Goliath and wonders out loud why somebody hasn't done something...and his brothers basically tell him to stop bothering the important soldiers and go home. But David has another idea – why not him?

And here we hit on the first step in tackling our Goliath – we've got to be willing to make a start. To step out and change things. To stand up against some form of evil or oppression. To stand up for what is right even when it isn't easy or comfortable to do so. David was willing and he went to Saul to tell him he was ready to go up against the Philistine. And Saul said, you can't do it...you're too inexperienced, you're too young, you can't accomplish this. Look how big that guy is! He's been at this for longer than you've been alive. You shouldn't even try. Saul may think that he's doing the right thing – this kid doesn't know what he's up against.

Yep...when you try to affect change in the world or in your life, you're going to run into some Sauls. Maybe you're excited that you've decided to start going to the gym on Monday and you tell your friend but the first thing he says is, “well, we'll see how long that lasts.” Or you finally decide you'll step out on faith and begin a new Bible study and you talk about it in a church council meeting and you hear, “nobody will come out on that day” or “Bob tried that years ago and it fell flat” or “what makes you qualified to teach a Bible study?”

David is stronger than I think I would have been – he just looks at Saul and says, “I can do this.” And he backs up his claim with some of his experiences as a shepherd. Which is a much more challenging job than the pastoral picture in my mind. I always thought I'd like to be a shepherd. Sitting around in a field with sheep, getting my tan on...reading some books or playing my lyre...learning to play the lyre.... Sheep softly baa'ing while I take a nap under a tree. Uh yeah... Apparently shepherding is nothing like that! You've got to keep these stubborn and stupid creatures from wandering off cliffs, moving them around to fresh grass that needs to be someplace near fresh water, and it gets hot during the day and super cold at night...and I expect that the sheep don't just softly baa. I expect that it is like having a herd of 5 year old kids – all wanting to go in different directions, somebody needing a bandaid and another needing a juice box and we won't even get into what the smell would be like (herd of kids OR sheep!). On top of that David explains to Saul that there are predators that attack like lions and bears! Nope, not for me.

David says that he's faced tough stuff before and that God-of-the-Angel-Armies has always delivered him. He's not afraid of the lion or the bear and he's not going to let this pig continue to disrespect his God. Bring it on. And Saul agrees.

So, the first step was to be willing to make a change. The next step is going to be telling the Sauls to step aside. And sometimes the voice of Saul is coming from inside our own head. David was faithful and strong – he is ready. When I face my Goliaths...sometimes I'm bringing the voice of Saul right along with me. And sometimes he's telling me that I'd better be careful.

Saul puts his very own armor on David. Saul says, “if you're gonna do this, you'd better do it this way.” And David gives it a try. But it isn't a good fit. With this big bronze helmet and the armor and Saul's own sword...David can barely move. He's going at the problem the wrong way for him – he's got to say to Saul, “this isn't for me.”

How often have we face problems or tough situations to have others say, “here is how I would fix that” and “I went through something similar and this is the way to come through it.” Or, how often have WE been the Saul in someone else's storm?

My brother is a wise man (well, only sometimes) who has told me more than once, “sometimes people just need to tell you their problems.”

I'm a natural born troubleshooter. I worked for a number of years as a video engineer for a VHS duplication house. Parents, explain to the kids what a VCR is later. We ran 300 tapes at a time and my job was to keep signals going to all 300 machines. I approach all problems with the same process – start at one and and work your way to the other and you'll find the source of the difficulty along the path. That's my process. My suit of armor.

David couldn't fight Goliath in the same way that Saul would. And not everyone will quit smoking the same way or cope with loneliness the same way or deal with the loss of a beloved pet the same way. We all want to be so helpful...oh, the best way to get over the loss of your cat is to throw away all her toys and stuff so you don't have to face them. No, the best way is to get another cat. No, you should...

You get the point. We've got to put on our own armor and stop trying to put our armor on others. Doesn't mean we don't love and support and grieve and brainstorm and cope together – just going to have to respect that my way isn't the only way. It's not even necessarily the better way, no matter what I think!

So David takes off Saul's armor. And he takes his staff and sling and five smooth stones from a nearby brook and he heads out. Despite the warnings. Despite the doubts. Despite the lack of military might. David keeps on going. Some would call it determination. Others would call it foolhardy. I can tell you what Goliath thought. He thinks this is hilarious and insulting.

Am I a dog that you come after me with a stick?” he sneers. He curses him and basically says he's going to feed him to the buzzards and field mice. I've faced problems like that – I walk toward them with the confidence of someone who wants to make a change. And the problem looks at me and says, “determination? Is that all you got?”

But determination isn't all David has. He's got some ammunition. He's got some weapons against this problem. Along the way he's picked up five smooth stones, five instruments – not defensive but offensive! What are your stones – your tools against the challenges? I'll suggest a few, but you'll have to get your own stones from the stream.

My first stone is Courage. David was not afraid to face the enemy. I am almost always afraid to face the enemy, continuing to face those fears is the definition of courage. You're going to need that to face the giants in your life. Where do we find courage though? Unlike the lion in the Wizard of Oz, I don't think that just pinning a medal to my chest will give me courage. But what I learned from that furry example is that if you keep going even when fear tells you to turn around and run...you have found courage. And every time you do it, your courage builds.

My second stone is Confidence. Which I had to dig out of a deep muddy hole of self-doubt. But I'm learning that being confident in my abilities isn't the same as the sin of pride – so now I'm learning to embrace my abilities.

Most of us have encountered people who turn away every compliment. You tell them, “gosh, I really appreciated the way you explained that” and they say “oh, it was nothing.” “You look so great today!” “oh, you need an eye exam.” Stop it. False humility robs others of the chance to encourage you and robs you of the confidence building power of having accomplishments. I'm going to build my confidence later by just saying thank you when people tell me what a great job I did leading worship today!

My third stone is Preparation. If we are going into battle with our courage and confidence, we'll have more impact if we know what we are up against. If I'm going to quit drinking then I need to know what I'm going to face emotionally and physically. I'm going to prepare by communicating with others who have faced the same Goliath. I'm going to recognize the storm ahead and go into prepared. Just like I don't come into the sanctuary today and just say, “well, God will provide the words...so I'll just open my mouth and see what comes out.” Maybe that is YOUR set of armor, it doesn't fit me. I'm going into this battle with my eyes open but willing to let go of my battle plan if God so guides.

Because my fourth stone is Trust. At some point, I've got to let go of my plan and trust God. Sometimes I keep that stone behind glass and I'm reluctant to pull out the little hammer and break it out. I want to run around and keep all the plates spinning myself! I got this God!! You worry about the other people, I'll call on my Trust rock when I really, really, really need it. I'm so foolish.

David didn't trust in his own ability to slay the giant. When Goliath shouted at David, cursed him and was ready to kill him, David said, “You come at me with a sword and a spear, but I come to you in the name of the Lord God Almighty.” He trusted God to fulfill his promise to be with him through all the trials of life. He knew this God had delivered him before and would not abandon him now.

So David steps out confidently and announces that he has come in the name of the Lord and that God hand Goliath over to him. He states with confidence what he is about to do – I'm about to kill you, cut off your head and serve up your body (and the bodies of your pals) to crows and coyotes. Hello, my name is David, you mocked my God...prepare to die.

He goes on to tell this Goliath that his death will be a sign to the whole Earth that this God, the God of Israel is extraordinary. And Goliath is done with this pest. Enough with your sticks and stones, little boy. And he lunges for David. And as crazy as it sounds – while Goliath is running at David, David starts running at the Philistine!!

And he reaches in and pulls out a stone, loads it in the sling, and lets it fly.

The rock embeds itself in Goliath's forehead and he falls facedown in the dirt. As quickly as the battle began, it is over. David is the victor and Goliath is defeated. I can imagine stunned silence followed by gasps then cheers!

How about us? Who or what are our Goliaths? Maybe you cope with one of those “big” obstacles or a hundred duck-sized horses. Perhaps your giants are fear, insecurity, loneliness or failure. Maybe you want to make a change but you aren't even sure where to start!

Start by deciding to start. Figure out that you don't want things to continue the way that they are. Maybe you want to find ways to be kinder to yourself. Maybe you want to make a big impact in the community. Maybe you want closer relationships. Identify your Goliath and say, “I'm coming after you.”

Then you'll face your Sauls and at some point you may even have to hand their armor and advice back and say “thanks, but this just doesn't fit me.” And then you'll set out to begin the battle.

Go armed, find your five smooth stones. But make sure that at least one of them is grounded in God. Maybe they all are... trusting in God to see you through the storm. Knowing that he DOES care about your struggles. He cares enough about you as a person to allow you to grow through challenges and strife – but that through it all he is right there. He CAN calm the storm. When you turn toward God, you will find that he has been there all along, supporting and guiding you as you grow. As you change yourself and the world around you. Don't get lost in hopelessness. Embrace the God who stilled the storm...and then step back in wonder and awe as you witness his power in every situation. Thanks be to God.

It's All About Love

This message was first delivered at Monroe United Methodist Church in Monroe, Virginia on May 6, 2018. It is based on the lectionary texts of John 15:9-17Acts 10:44-48 and

It's All About Love

As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you; abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love. I have said these things to you so that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be complete.

This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. No one has greater love than this, to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. I do not call you servants any longer, because the servant does not know what the master is doing; but I have called you friends, because I have made known to you everything that I have heard from my Father. You did not choose me but I chose you. And I appointed you to go and bear fruit, fruit that will last, so that the Father will give you whatever you ask him in my name. I am giving you these commands so that you may love one another.

Several years ago – one of the first sermons I ever wrote, in fact – I penned a message based on the choir's anthem for that day: They'll Know We Are Christians By Our Love. It was the first sermon I wrote on Love and quite frankly, I've become addicted to the theme. I've spoken in a couple dozen different churches on the district and am probably close to my 50th message delivered. And 9 times out of 10, love comes onto the scene. I'm in pretty good company in that regard...

Jerome, in his commentary on Galatians, tells that St. John continued preaching in Ephesus even when he was in his 90s. Even when he was so enfeebled that he had to be carried in on a stretcher, he would lean up on one elbow and deliver his message, “Little children, love one another.” Then he would lie back down and be carried out. One day, the story goes, someone asked him why he said the same thing week after week. John replied, “Because it is enough.” It is Christianity in a nutshell. Love is the key. And it can't help weaving its way into my messages.

When I'm asked to speak at a church my first action after putting it on my calendar is to pull up the discipleship ministries' lectionary website to see what the scriptures are for that Sunday. I don't know if you are familiar with the lectionary – I really only became aware myself about 15 years ago when we had a pastor who came to Centenary who regularly preached from the lectionary and always printed next week's scriptures in each week's bulletin. A little background for those who may not even know what I'm talking about!

The revised common lectionary is a series of prescribed readings used by protestant churches in worship. It generally includes a passage from the Old Testament, a Psalm, the New Testament and a Gospel reading. It is on a three year rotation, we are in Year B right now. It is the connected worship of many denominations. A great many pastors look to those four weekly scriptures to determine their message topic for the week. Of course, there are also a great many who choose other topics to "preach on."

If you think about it though...if even 1% of the Christian congregations in the world preach on the same set of scriptures...that is 37,000 congregations all focusing on a particular aspect of our relationship with God and with each other. That can be very powerful, especially if we are intentional in the way we communicate with God - and with each other.

So I get into the Word and start looking at the scriptures for that week and thinking about the hymns and seeking God's direction. I read them in different translations and compare thoughts from commentaries written by wise and studied theologians and from time to time I even break out my copy of John Wesley's 44 Sermons. And I sometimes get myself so confused and overwhelmed I wonder when it will all come into focus.

And that particular sermon that I was working on was for the hardest audience – I was preaching at my home church, Centenary! So I was in full-on preparation mode that week when I walked into choir practice that Thursday night. And we started working on the anthem for Sunday, an arrangement of They'll Know We Are Christians. And suddenly, it all came into focus. And I knew what my message was going to be on. That Sunday morning I went into the choir room to pray with them before taking my place behind the pulpit and I do NOT know what got into me. But I basically told them that I had written my sermon around the anthem and threw down the gauntlet. They were going to need to put every bit of power behind it that could muster. I told them to bring it. And they did NOT disappoint.

From the beginning of the first stanza, “We are ONE in the Spirit, We are One in the Lord...” to a resounding “YES, they'll know we are Christians by our Love!” with the sopranos reaching straight for heaven. And I had tears in my eyes as I looked at these beautiful Christians showing me their love with their voices in worship. And they sat down and dared me bring it.

Today's passage from John is Jesus talking with his disciples. I know this will seem strange since Easter was weeks ago – but this is actually from the period of time just after the Last Supper. I can imagine the mindset of Jesus during this time AND the time between the resurrection and the ascension: almost like a coach right before the big game starts. He's trying to get these last critical thoughts into the thick-headed disciples. And he is a lot more gentle than I would be! I'd have been yelling in my stage manager's voice, “Boneheads! My time here is nearly over and you still don't get it, do you? I've got to simplify this one more time. Just stick to the basics – how about you do one thing? Love each other. Do you think you can do the one thing?”

Because what I'm asking you to do is IMPORTANT! Pay attention kids. Just as the Father loved me. I've loved you. Now do that.

Because, like the anthem says. They'll Know.

First of all, they are going to know we are Christians by the love we show to THEM. Who them? Who are THEY? Who is my neighbor?

With the recent tornado, I've heard a lot (and read a lot on Facebook) about neighbors taking care of each other. People collecting clothes, food and money. People clearing debris and gathering the few possessions that some folks were left with after their homes were damaged or destroyed entirely. Watching out for each other. Providing shelter and a shoulder to lean on. These neighbors are important. But we know from scripture that our neighbor is more than the guy who lives next door with the chainsaw. The whole world is our neighborhood.

So, suddenly – They and them are more clearly defined. They are the people on the outside who are just waiting to be invited in. I know that the last time I was here at Monroe UMC that I shared a story from Tattoos on the Heart by Gregory Boyle, a Jesuit who began Homeboy Industries in Los Angeles. The book is a collection of stories from the gang-intervention program that was started in the poorest parish in LA, center of the gang capital of the world. You don't get much more “they” than that.

In this book, Pastor G (as the homies call him) tells about the instance in scripture where Jesus is in a house so packed that no one can come through the door anymore. So the people open the roof and lower this paralytic down through it so Jesus can heal him. Although the focus of the story is, understandably, the healing of the paralytic...there is something more significant happening. They're ripping the roof off the place, and those outside are being let in.

We need to rip some roofs off. We need to go outside and see the people who are hurting and need Jesus. We need to find every way possible to get them connected to the one who loves them – and let them know that he does.

I know that Monroe UMC has a rich history of reaching out. In fact when I was texting with Pastor Dalton he told me that the slogan on your T-shirts is “Love one another.” That is a great message. Jesus would wear that shirt.

There are people who are hurting out there. People who need to see the love of God. We have neighbors who don't have enough to eat, who need a listening ear, who need a helping hand to get back on their feet, neighbors who face barriers that we can dismantle. They are counting on us.

We have the power to show them God's love. But we have to understand something very important. They will experience God's love through the love we show. And they will be able to tell if it is genuine. They will know if we are helping them out of a sense of obligation or if our helping them is just an extension of the joy we have in being loved so much by God.

But who do we offer this love to?

Today's lectionary scriptures also include scriptures from Acts 10:44-48 and
1 John 5:1-6 – both of which touch on the topic of WHO should be included.
In Acts, Peter is speaking and the Holy Spirit falls on all who were listening. And the circumcised are astounded that the Gentiles are included! They know it happened, because they heard them speaking in tongues and extolling God – but what the heck? And Peter baptizes them! Peterson's The Message phrases Peter's response in verses 46-48 this way, Then Peter said, “Do I hear any objections to baptizing these friends with water? They’ve received the Holy Spirit exactly as we did.” Hearing no objections, he ordered that they be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ. Then they asked Peter to stay on for a few days.”

And 1 John 5 – the final chapter of that book begins with the awesome statement that “Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ has been born of God, and everyone who loves the parent loves the child.” Everyone who believes belongs. And they'll know by the love we show for them.

Is it offered to all? Is it offered without strings and conditions? Does God's love have conditions? He doesn't even demand we love him back! It is love freely and unconditionally offered – this is the love we are instructed to show to others. What they choose to do with the love is all up to them. What we choose to do with God's love is all up to us.

I feel Jesus' urgency in explaining this to his disciples. He says it's simple, keep my commands and dwell in my love. He goes on to tell them that his purpose for telling them this is so that they'll feel the same joy that he does! “that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be complete.”

And Jesus hits it from one more angle, just in case they don't get it (which is normally the case with us humans). Verses 12-15 in The Message, This is my command: Love one another the way I loved you. This is the very best way to love. Put your life on the line for your friends. You are my friends when you do the things I command you. I’m no longer calling you servants because servants don’t understand what their master is thinking and planning. No, I’ve named you friends because I’ve let you in on everything I’ve heard from the Father.”

We are in on the secret – we know what the master is doing and why. So we aren't just blindly following orders...We Know! We are to love others the way that God loves us because it is the best way to love. Put our lives on the line for our friends. And before you get too comfortable with the concept that you only lay down your life for the people you call friends...as my youth class would say, “check yourself before you wreck yourself.” I don't think we get to limit it to only people we like. As my buddy Father Greg wrote, “Jesus says if you love those who love you, big whoo...” oh. man. He's right. How hard is it to love those who already love us? Sure, they'll irritate us and frustrate us – but loving people we already love isn't much of a challenge.

Maybe...just maybe, we're going to have to expand our circle of friends.

I am the middle child of five. Four girls, One boy – you can all pray for my brother...he deserves your pity and respect.

My sister Karen is one of those people who has never met a stranger. She can sit down at any table, on an airplane, in a church, standing in line for a roller-coaster and make friends. She just says that strangers are friends you haven't met yet. She'll ask questions, get people smiling and laughing – finding common ground with everyone. I'd like to be more like her – but I'm the person who has a random conversation starter app on my phone to help me strike up a chat with a stranger. Yes, seriously, there is an app for that. With questions like What is your favorite pizza topping? Or Where is the best place you've ever visited? Or What was your worst job ever?

Seeking common ground with and showing genuine interest in our fellow human beings is the answer to the question – what would Jesus do? Love God and love who God loves. Which is everyone – Jew and Gentile, slave and free, man and woman, no exceptions. No exclusions. No conditions.

If we are going to do what he told us – in the best way possible. Love one another as I loved you. Because they'll know. They are going to know we are Christians by our Love.

One more thought before I wrap up – an obstacle that I need to warn you about before you run into it yourself. Here is the wall that I slam into headlong on a regular basis. It can be hard to show the love of God to others if we haven't accepted it for ourselves. I'm going to own this statement for me – I have to believe God loves me in order to show that love to others.

You get me? I'm saying that I don't always feel worthy of God's love – so I reject it. I was brought up and taught to accept certain things such as God is love. I concede “God loves us,” and yet there is this lurking sense that perhaps I'm not fully part of the “us.” The arms of God reach to embrace, and somehow I feel just outside God's fingertips. Thinking that God embraces me begrudgingly and reluctantly... But that is false thinking. That is putting God's ability to love down with my defective human ability to love. As St. Paul wrote – when you completely know the one in who you move and live and have your being...then you see that it has been God's JOY to love you all along. God's joy to love me...not just put up with me. God LOVES loving you! It is his joy.

We'll know we are Christians by our love. Everyone needs to hear about this incredible. Unfathomable. Unconditional. Love. We need to hear this too. We need to come to the place of accepting this for ourselves. We need to know – we are wholly acceptable to God. And he loves us. Right here. Right now.

In Tattoos on the Heart, Pastor G relates a story about Willy. Willy has hit up G for a ride and 20 bucks. When Pastor G stops at the ATM to coax the 20 from his thin bank account Willy asks him for the keys so he can listen to the radio but G tells him to pray instead. When he returns to the car he finds Willy changed. Quiet and reflective and he knows that Willy has made a connection to God. Pastor G asks Willy how he sees God. Willy replies that “God is my dog.” (meaning his homie, good thing) Then he asks Willy how he thinks God sees him. After some thought Willy says, “He thinks I'm firme (spanish word).” In gang terms, it means “it could not be one bit better.”)

God thinks that we are all Firme. He loves us completely. When we recognize how much God loves us.

Right now.

Not when we do better.

Not when we get our checklist done: read bible daily, fast weekly, tithe, stop speeding, never lose our temper...

No, we are wholly acceptable. No conditions. Firme. Could not be one bit better.

When we dive into the depths of that unfathomable love, then we start to see the people around us differently. And this love thing starts to spread. And this just might catch on.

Doubt and Faith - Where the Rubber Meets the Road

This message was first delivered at Providence United Methodist and White's United Methodist in Rustburg, Virginia on April 8, 2018. It is based on the lectionary text of John 20:19-31.

Doubt and Faith

When it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and the doors of the house where the disciples had met were locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” After he said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I send you.” When he had said this, he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”


But Thomas (who was called the Twin), one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord.” But he said to them, “Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe.”

A week later his disciples were again in the house, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were shut, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe.” Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.”

Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life in his name.

There is a lot going on in this passage of scripture prescribed by the lectionary for the first Sunday after Easter! It is a continuation of the resurrection story of last week – this astounding turn of events in the lives of the disciples, Jesus is alive? Have you heard that Mary SAW him and spoke with him? Jesus is alive? The followers of Jesus were reeling. It has been an incredible week from the high of the parade in Jerusalem with Jesus riding on the back of a donkey and the people raising their voices and waving palm branches to the unbelievable betrayal of Judas and that mockery of a trial? And when Pilate gave the people an opportunity to set Jesus free as his token of respect for the Passover...the people picked Barabbas, a known murderer? It was only a few days ago that the disciples had suffered through the horror of Friday...watching their teacher, leader and friend nailed to a cross and hung between two common criminals to die. The disciples saw the sky grow dark and when Jesus breathed his last – the curtain in the temple tore in two! Incredible stories of tombs opening up and the dead being raised and walking around the holy city. Yes...this has been an incredible week for the followers of Jesus. And just when they are beginning to wrap their heads around the death of Jesus...now Mary says that she has seen Jesus and he is alive. I think we all would be feeling some doubt. That evening – answers arrive.

Jesus drops by. And he drops by with style...he appears among them in a locked room. Shazam. These are folks on edge. They are behind locked doors for a very good reason – the Jewish leaders are to be feared. There is no reason to believe that the disciples aren't going to be next – clearly the establishment is planning to eradicate this rebellion. Suddenly, Jesus is THERE. And he shows them his hands and side – they don't even have to ask! And they are exuberant. I can only imagine. This is amazing. And I'm sure they were freaked out! The first thing Jesus says is “peace be with you.”

Peace? Impossible! But Jesus isn't calling for quiet – he's calming and reassuring the followers that this is real. They aren't hallucinating, he is really there with them. And John tells us that Jesus breathed the Holy Spirit on them. And he gave them an instruction - If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained. And before they get to ask him “what do you mean when you say that?” - in John's gospel, he is gone.

And later, Thomas shows up and is treated to the most incredible news. The rumors are true, Jesus is alive – he was here! Thomas wants proof. This is too much...it isn't possible according to all of the human laws of physics and logic. Thomas has seen miracles performed by Jesus that defy those scientific realities. He was there at the feeding of the 5000. He's been part of Jesus' posse for a couple years – astounding is kind of what Jesus did. But Thomas and the other followers have had their world shattered.

In the space of a week things have turned upside down. And now folks are trying to tell Thomas that it really is ok...Jesus is risen from the dead. Thomas can't shift gears that fast. I totally relate. Even when there is good news at the end of a tough situation it is difficult for me to shake off the dark stuff and embrace the light. Lost my key last week and even after it turned up, the evening felt broken. I understand that it is human nature and that I'm apparently responding to years of evolution of the human experience. This tendency to focus on the negative is part of what kept our ancestors alive. Watching out for predators and dangers was once key to survival. Somebody needs to inform my reptilian brain that I'm not likely to be attacked in the wilds of Madison Heights.

I relate to Thomas more than just his inability to rapidly embrace new information. I completely relate to the doubt. And Thomas and I aren't alone. Thomas may be the most famous doubter – but he's just an example of all our humanity. We doubt. We ask for proof. Sometimes we demand it. We feel entitled to uncover “the truth” - we want the whole story. Show me.

Thomas says, “Unless I see the nail holes in his hands, put my finger in the nail holes, and stick my hand in his side, I won’t believe it.” And a week passes by and the disciples are again together locked away behind closed doors. Jesus appears. And again he calmly reassures the group by saying, “Peace be with you.” Then he focuses on Thomas. “Put your finger here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe.”

Thomas didn't even have to ask. Jesus knew. Look carefully at how Jesus treats Thomas. John does not report that Jesus was angry. He encourages Thomas to seek the assurance that he seeks. And the dam in Thomas bursts and he declares immediately, “My Lord and my God.” The doubt is washed away. Can you feel the relief of knowing that Thomas experienced?

Then Jesus simply says, “Have you come to believe because you've seen me? It would have been even better if you had believed without proof.” Eugene Peterson's The Message phrases that part of verse 29 as “Even better blessings are in store for those who believe without seeing.” Nowhere does it say there is punishment for doubt – it says “even better” if you believe without demanding proof. Jesus understood Thomas and he understands us.

I think that I am fortunate to teach the youth Sunday School class at Centenary. They are an energetic bunch of middle and high schoolers who are in the first Sunday school class where the teacher says on a regular basis “I don't have all the answers.” (Truth be told, I don't even have all the questions!) Encouraging them to explore what their faith means to them as individuals is a tricky transition from the “reading bible stories and coloring pictures of Jesus” Christian education to “what does this mean for ME today?” One of those youth asked me one day if I ever had any doubts about whether all this is real or something somebody made up.

Ever? Oh yes honey...yes...and I'm not alone.

Mother Teresa of Calcutta, now Saint Teresa, was known for dedicating her life to the poor, sick and dying in India. When people are asked about modern day saints – she is the example that more people point to than any other 20th century figure. Even though she has been dead for a little over 20 years, most of us can picture her stooped figure. Her faith is so celebrated that the Catholic church canonized her in 2016 (that is, declared her a saint). So there were some that were stunned when a book of her letters was published in 2007. Because those letters revealed a side of Mother Teresa that only her closest confidants knew...she felt doubt.

A few excerpts from those letters reveal a heart that I understand. In September 1979 she wrote to a friend, “Jesus has a very special love for you. As for me, the silence and the emptiness is so great that I look and do not see, listen and do not hear.” Even soon after she began the Missionaries of Charity in 1950 she wrote “Please pray specially for me that I may not spoil His work and that Our Lord may show Himself — for there is such terrible darkness within me, as if everything was dead,” “It has been like this more or less from the time I started ‘the work.’” At times she even found it hard to pray. “I utter words of community prayers — and try my utmost to get out of every word the sweetness it has to give — but my prayer of union is not there any longer — I no longer pray.”

There were some who found these dark letters disturbing and wished the publishers had not included them in the collection. I'm glad they are there.

They give ME immeasurable comfort. Finally a saint I can relate to! Because I relate to Thomas and Teresa – I have times of doubt. Because this isn't logical! I have one friend that I see when I visit the Outer Banks who is agnostic. We've spent SO many hours debating the existence of God that I have lost track. He has said many times, “you are one of the most intelligent people I know. How can you believe in something so unbelievable?” We've gone through the whole Bible as literary device supported by other writings of the early church and Eusebius and Pliny the Elder and Josephus... but it always comes back to the question of belief in absence of proof. “Why wouldn't a God make it more clear that he exists...write it in the sky?”

Well, Thomas...because that is the easy way. As Jesus said to him, “how much better it would be if you believed without seeing.” Jesus knew the early church was going to have to dig down and rely on their faith during the coming times – it was going to be tested and he needed it to be stronger than just believing what you can see, what you can prove. Because that is fleeting, depending on your level of trust in the proofs. How much better it is to be able to believe when you can't see. That takes trust. Jesus was encouraging his followers to hang tough in the face of a world that was already questioning if he was truly the Messiah or just another prophet. They were going to need faith.

But here's the thing – we've come to equate doubt with a lack of faith. And that's not accurate. Paul Tillich, German-American theologian and philosopher said, “Doubt is not the opposite of faith; it is one element of faith.” Doubt is an element of faith? The dictionary defines doubt as “to be uncertain about something” and it defines faith as “belief that is not based on proof.” How is doubt PART of faith? Well, ask yourself, “what do Doubting Thomas, Doubting Teresa and Doubting Chris all have in common?”

They kept showing up.

The scripture from John says that it is a week after Jesus first appeared to Mary, the followers on the road to Emmaus and the group in the locked room. Plenty of time for Thomas to get out of town before the Jewish leadership decide it is time for more of Jesus' crowd to die. After all, they are already having to deal with these rumors that he has returned from the dead – in Matthew's account the chief priests have paid off a contingent of the Roman guard. Matthew 28:11-15 from The Message, Meanwhile, the guards had scattered, but a few of them went into the city and told the high priests everything that had happened. They called a meeting of the religious leaders and came up with a plan: They took a large sum of money and gave it to the soldiers, bribing them to say, “His disciples came in the night and stole the body while we were sleeping.” They assured them, “If the governor hears about your sleeping on duty, we will make sure you don’t get blamed.” The soldiers took the bribe and did as they were told. That story, cooked up in the Jewish High Council, is still going around.But even a week after Thomas declares he doesn't believe it unless he sees it...he's there. Why?

Because Thomas was faithful. Despite the lack of tangible proof, he's there. Even though Mother Teresa couldn't always feel the presence of God...she showed up. And she continued to serve the God that she believed in – despite the doubt...because that is where faith kicks in.

It isn't hard to believe in the stuff that is right there in front of our eyes – belief in the face of doubt is where the rubber hits the road. Are we in this for the long haul or are we just going to fall away when confronted with the challenges of the world? Because the world is always going to challenge our belief – going to encourage our doubts...are we going to show up for God anyway?

There is a website that I discovered during my study and preparation for this message – roomfordoubt.com – which has a section called Stories of Doubt. I really resonated with a story from Bob about his journey. Bob grew up in an inner city neighborhood. In junior high he attended church with an uncle and soon accepted Christ. He was in a racially charged junior high and high school, with a riot closing his high school a month before graduation. During that time he relied on God and was in constant prayer. Then he went to a Bible college. And the environment changed and he said without the imminent dangers he found himself with the “luxury of doubt” and his mind was soon asking serious questions about Christianity. (1) Is God even there? (2) If there is a God, why should I believe the Bible? (3) If there is a God, why should I believe God really cares about me?

And it took time and effort but Bob continued to seek answers. He talked with professors and read a lot of books and came to these conclusions with that period of growth: “By then I had decided that God is real. I had decided that the Bible is reliable. I had discovered that great intellectuals believed, and I had decided that the evidence was strong enough that I must also believe. But I still wondered about my own place before God. Then I read Francis Schaeffer’s True Spirituality. There I decided that God cares personally about me because God says so. I remember crossing the threshold to decide to take God at God’s word. In the face of demanding evidence, I chose to believe and to reinforce the decision of surrender I had made years earlier. I believe that the Holy Spirit is always working with all of us, either from the outside or from within. I believe that even then God was leading me through times of question and encounter, always giving me opportunity to draw closer, but also leaving me the option to go the other direction. God’s grace protected me, led me, and stimulated me, allowing attacks and doubts to give me opportunity to choose to believe. To God be the glory!

John completes Chapter 20 by revealing why he wrote the gospel - Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life in his name.

Have you come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah? Are you willing to follow even when you don't have all the answers? There are a lot of people, including professing Christians, who do have doubts about God and the identity of Jesus. One option is just to tell them to stop doubting, because it’s totally incompatible with having “true faith” and therefore wrong.

Another option is to give them an opportunity to talk about their questions and doubts and help them work through it. I've decided to practice what Jude commands in Jude 1:22 “And have mercy on some, who are doubting.” Because this isn't a sprint – it is a marathon. We've got to keep showing up, making an impact on a hurting world and through the journey we find these kindred souls all struggling with something...also continuing to show up.

And in those periods of time when we feel like we have all the answers – let us be humbled to recognize that Jesus meets us where we are. On the journey, not just at the destination.

I'll close with a poem I discovered by Norman Shirk of the Dallas Theological Society - 

DOUBT
Let me meet you on the mountain, Lord,
Just once.
You wouldn't have to burn a whole bush.
Just a few smoking branches
And I would surely be ...your Moses.

Let me meet you on the water, Lord,
Just once.
It wouldn't have to be on White Rock Lake.
Just on a puddle after the annual Dallas rain
And I would surely be...your Peter.

Let me meet you on the road, Lord,
Just once.
You wouldn't have to blind me on North Central Expressway.
Just a few bright lights on the way to chapel
And I would surely be...your Paul.

Let me meet you, Lord,
Just once.
Anywhere. Anytime.
Just meeting you in the Word is so hard sometimes
Must I always be...your Thomas?

Yes, we all go through times of doubt and questioning just like Thomas. If we didn't have any doubts, we would have nothing but an empty hollow faith. Embrace these chances to grow in faith. It's when we overcome those doubts and see God's grace that we truly learn to believe.